I want to write about something a bit personal in this post, so bear with me. Over the past two years, I have been through the deepest valleys of hell itself. This hell came in the form of a bitter excruciating divorce. Now I have been around the block a few times and am no stranger to pain, blues, and agony, but… Damn! To all those reading this article who have endured divorce and still have a shred of faith and trust left in their heart, I both salute and admire you.
“For a while we pondered whether to take a vacation or get a divorce. We decided that a trip to Bermuda is over in two weeks, but a divorce is something you always have.“
– Woody Allen
Being a creative person, I have always chosen to live my life being open to the good, magical things in life… “Faith, Trust, Pixie Dust” and believe if each of us made an effort to retain even a minute bit of our child-like whimsy, the world would be a far better place. The past two years have drained me profoundly… Both emotionally and creatively. I was flung far from my sanctuary of creativity and put face-to-face with the ugly side of this world. Four hundred percent of my time was spent wresting custody of my child from someone I had once loved deeply. Standing up for my child against his “mother” was both the most important thing and the saddest thing I have ever had to do. But it was the right thing. Now that the divorce has been finalized and sole custody been awarded to me, I have to refuel my creativity in the absence of faith and trust and press onward.
“We have done the impossible, and that makes us mighty.“
– Captain Mal Reynolds (Firefly/Serenity)
I do not intend to dwell upon or further write about this time in my life in future posts, nor do I intend to demonize the mother of my child. I hope she finds herself, heals, and can one day slay enough of her demons so that she can attempt to rebuild the relationship she destroyed with our child. My focus is on my son and (finally!!) my creative work, and I plan to put every passionate fiber of my being into both.